I've had a sad day...

[Buoy-Master]

Where do I start? I've known this young man for about 8 years...Ive watched him go through some very hard times in his life and mainly due to his own doings.

Todd Stokes was a good friend and one of my supervisors at Tennessee Trailers. He had been separated from his wife for almost a year and as rough as this may sound, he needed to stay far from her. He was fighting for custody of his little boy Alex but about 2 months ago, decided to give it another try. This would have been like the 5th time with her. I knew things weren't going right but encouraged him to either get some real help or stay on the path he was on. Seems he chose another route.

Todd took his own life last night and I'm truly hurt and mad at the same time. I tried to do so much for him and keep him in my sights for when ever he needed me. I know I did all I could yet seriously frustrated thinking I should have done more.

Alex is his son and probably wont have the life that Todd and I talked about him having. I had a opportunity to share my boat with them at cracker-fest 2008. Alex had a blast fishing with us! Now all I can think about is what will happen to him, what will he end up like with the circumstances at hand...Funny, Thursday on my to a CBA meeting, i got behind Todd and Alex. Alex was looking out the back window acting like he was reeling in a fish! Too Funny. To him, I'm the guy with the fast boat. I let him steer it at 60 mph..LOL he loved it.

I'll miss my friend and worry about his child. Please pray for all the family.

 

[CouchTater]

Sad situation,Prayers going up from Sand Mountain.

 

[yellburt]

sorry to here.be proud that you tried.sometimes all we do may not be enough.prayers sent.

 

[flip1up]

So sorry to hear that Billy.

 

[foodsaver]

Sorry to hear it. I will keep his family in prayer and also you as you struggle through it.

 

[Bprice]

Thats awful Billy... Prayers

 

[Fishin Fool]

Very sad. I am sorry to hear about it. Prayers are sent.

 

[churly]

Poor child! All you can do is keep your head up and make sure that boy has a chance to go fishing when he wants to!

 

[SNUFFY]

I hate it for you and the little boy Billy......I didn`t know the guy but it kinda makes me mad that he didn`t hang in there for the young `un anyway. Sorry .

 

[bass15]

I hate to hear that to.I will say a prayer for them.Keep your head up.

 

[Buoy-Master]

churly - 1/12/2009 9:18 PM

Poor child! All you can do is keep your head up and make sure that boy has a chance to go fishing when he wants to!

I plan on talking to Alex's grandmother at the viewing and hopefuly work something out with her on getting some fishing time in with him. I really cant see dealing with the young mans mother. Theres just too much there going on yet I hope and pray to god this changes her for every right reason!

SNUFFY - 1/12/2009 9:20 PM

I hate it for you and the little boy Billy......I didn`t know the guy but it kinda makes me mad that he didn`t hang in there for the young `un anyway. Sorry .

Thats the other side of my feelings Snuffy...Im mad as hell that he did such a selfish act. He knew he could come to me. maybe he would be here for his child.


Thank you all. Hopefully my family will be able to spend some time with Alex this summer. Hes gonna need it.

 

[popper 690]

sorry to hear about that billy. emoGrouphug

 

[TAzGa]

Prayers sent for you and their families emoAngel

 

[jonathanfaith2]

Billy its a very sad event when some one decideds to do that. you and his family will be in my prayers

 

[Guest]

Prayers sent Billy, hope you can be a substitute dad for the little fellow if he lives close enough to you.emoAngel

 

[captXtreme]

Billy I know exactly how you are feeling, my thoughts are with you and his Son.
James

 

[ashtrey]

I am very sorry to hear this!!! My family will keep them in our prayers. Seen this happen with one of my friends' a few years ago he is gone like this fella and I was mad at first but I have now put it past me and look forward to hunting and fishing with him when I pass on. I know now that the lord has forgiven him for taking his own life and I am now at peace with this situation. Once again our prayers go out to the family.

 

[craazyboutbass]

Very sorry to hear this... its sad. My prayers go to the little boy and Todds friends and family.

 

[SpurHunter]

Thanks for letting us know your pain Billy. We have you and this family in our prayers at the Spur house. emoGrouphug

 

[josh.schreiber]

really sorry to hear that man. prayers sent